Damn
*sweeping up bloggie and knockin down cobwebs*
YEA ITS BEEN AWHILE
SINCE I STOPPED AND
PUT MY THOUGHTS ON FILE
THEY TRIED TO COCKBLOCK
AND EXPECTED ME TO FLOP
DONT THEY KNOW THIS HUSTLER
ALWAYS COME OUT ON TOP
I AINT NEW
IM KNOWN BY A FEW
AND ITS VERY WELL KNOWN
WHAT IM ABLE TO DO
SO THE RUMORS YOU HEAR
YOU CAN SQUASH IT
TAKE ALL YA TEARS
TAKE YA ASS
AND WASH IT
I MAY FALL BUT
STILL I RISE
AND THE ONLY PERSON
WILL BE GOD TO SEE MY DEMISE
I BLOW SMOKE AT THE HATAS
AND PART TIME HUSTLAS
AND GIVE DAPS TO MY PEEPS
AND MY FULL TIME CUSTOMERS
MY READERS KNOW MY LIFE
AND AINT ALWAYS THE ONE TO WIN
BUT ILL DUST MY SHOULDERS OFF
AND BEGIN AGAIN
I AM THE ONE
AND I CAN NOT LOSE
SO EITHER YOU WITH OR YOU NOT
SO PICK AND CHOOSE
HAD TO HIT YALL WITH A LITTLE FREESTYLE.....IM STILL BREAKIN INTO MUSIC ON THE MANAGEMENT AND PRODUCTION.....IM ALSO PURSUING A NEW JOB MAKING BETTER CHEDDAR...MY PERSONAL LIFE IS THE SAME AS ALWAYS ....NOTHING NEW TO REPORT BUT THAT IM STILL BREATHING....LIFE THREW ME A CURVEBALL BUT I STILL HIT THAT BITCH AND RAN...WELL UNTIL NEXT TIME...DO WHAT YOU DO AND I'LL HOLLA
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
DAMN ITS BEEN AWHILE
ITS BEEN ALONG TIME...I SHOULDNT HAVE LEFT YOU WITHOUT PIECES OF MY LIFE TO VIBE TO.....IM BACCCCCCCCCCCCKKKK!!!!! AND BETTER THEN EVER......I GOT THEM BASTID TEETH TAKEN OUT......I GOT SOME BASTID PEOPLE OUTTA MY LIFE....AND IM CHILLIN FOR ONCE.....
I GOT SO MANY BUSINESS IDEAS IN MY HEAD AND I SEEM TO BE PROCRASTINATING ON CAPITALIZING ON ANY ONE OF THEM.....I THINK I PLAN TO MUCH BUT THATS JUST CAUSE FAILURE ISNT AN OPTION.....I NEED TO JUST DO THE DAMN THING...BEAR WITH ME.....
SO IM INJURED ONCE AGAIN......SPRAIN HAMSTRING AND ANKLE AND BRUISED KNEE...NOTHING MAJOR ILL BE COMPLETELY MOBILE AGAIN IN A WEEK.... A LIL MINOR SLIP AND TUMBLE DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS....IM TOUGH ILL MANAGE...I HAVE ONE FRIEND WHO I KEEP WORRIED FOREVER AND I THANK HER FOR HER PATIENCE LOL.....THOUGH I FEAR ONE DAY SHE IS GOING TO KILL ME HERSELF FOR MY EXPLOITS LOL....
I THINK IM TIRING OF THE THE WHOLE SOUTH JERSEY THING.....ITS A BIT SLOW FOR ME WHICH IS WHAT I WANT BUT I DONT THINK ITS WHAT I WANT NOW.....I HAVE A FEW MORE THINGS TO DO IN MY LIFE AND I THINK I NEED TO BE IN THE HUSTLE AND BUSTLE OF THE CITY...... I THINK ILL BE BACK IN NEWARK SOON TO COMPLETE A COUPLE THINGS AND THEN ILL PROBABLY MOVE TO A PHILLY OR A NORTH CAROLINA OR ATL.....WHO KNOWS LOL.....
I AM ONCE AGAIN FEELING THE RELATIONSHIP THING...ACTUALLY IT NEVER WENT AWAY I JUST PUT IT IN THE BACK OF MY MIND....I THINK CAUSE IM GETTING OLDER IM LOOKING TO SETTLE DOWN...HAVE SOME KIDS AND JUST DO THE GOOD HUSBAND THING.....NOW ALL I NEED TO DO IS FIND A GOOD WIFE....IF THERE ARE ANY GOOD WOMEN OUT THERE READING THIS LOOKING FOR A GOOD MAN HOLLA AT YA BOY.... PLEASE BE ADVISED I HAVE NO PATIENCE FOR GAMES LOL SO COME CORRECT OR STAY HOME!!!!!! BUT REALLY I NEED TO FIND WHO WAS PUT ON THIS EARTH FOR ME AND MAKE THAT UNION....I THINK AGE IS PLAYING WITH MY MIND LOL...
I THINK THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A LEARNING EXPERIENCE SO FAR.....GOD HAS PUT ME THROUGH SOME THINGS I GUESS TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND MY PLACE IN LIFE AND HELP ME BECOME CLOSER TO HIM AND HIS PURPOSE FOR PUTTING ME HERE.....I KNOW HE HAS A MISSION FOR ME AND I ALSO KNOW I'M NOT THE MAN HE WANTS ME TO BE BUT IMMUCH BETTER THEN THE MAN I COULD HAVE BECOME......
SO ON THAT NOTE THIS ENDS THIS EDITION OF THE TREK INSIDE MY BRAIN.....I STILL DONT KNOW WHATS AROUND
BUT I STILL FEEL IT IN THE AIR!!!!!
I GOT SO MANY BUSINESS IDEAS IN MY HEAD AND I SEEM TO BE PROCRASTINATING ON CAPITALIZING ON ANY ONE OF THEM.....I THINK I PLAN TO MUCH BUT THATS JUST CAUSE FAILURE ISNT AN OPTION.....I NEED TO JUST DO THE DAMN THING...BEAR WITH ME.....
SO IM INJURED ONCE AGAIN......SPRAIN HAMSTRING AND ANKLE AND BRUISED KNEE...NOTHING MAJOR ILL BE COMPLETELY MOBILE AGAIN IN A WEEK.... A LIL MINOR SLIP AND TUMBLE DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS....IM TOUGH ILL MANAGE...I HAVE ONE FRIEND WHO I KEEP WORRIED FOREVER AND I THANK HER FOR HER PATIENCE LOL.....THOUGH I FEAR ONE DAY SHE IS GOING TO KILL ME HERSELF FOR MY EXPLOITS LOL....
I THINK IM TIRING OF THE THE WHOLE SOUTH JERSEY THING.....ITS A BIT SLOW FOR ME WHICH IS WHAT I WANT BUT I DONT THINK ITS WHAT I WANT NOW.....I HAVE A FEW MORE THINGS TO DO IN MY LIFE AND I THINK I NEED TO BE IN THE HUSTLE AND BUSTLE OF THE CITY...... I THINK ILL BE BACK IN NEWARK SOON TO COMPLETE A COUPLE THINGS AND THEN ILL PROBABLY MOVE TO A PHILLY OR A NORTH CAROLINA OR ATL.....WHO KNOWS LOL.....
I AM ONCE AGAIN FEELING THE RELATIONSHIP THING...ACTUALLY IT NEVER WENT AWAY I JUST PUT IT IN THE BACK OF MY MIND....I THINK CAUSE IM GETTING OLDER IM LOOKING TO SETTLE DOWN...HAVE SOME KIDS AND JUST DO THE GOOD HUSBAND THING.....NOW ALL I NEED TO DO IS FIND A GOOD WIFE....IF THERE ARE ANY GOOD WOMEN OUT THERE READING THIS LOOKING FOR A GOOD MAN HOLLA AT YA BOY.... PLEASE BE ADVISED I HAVE NO PATIENCE FOR GAMES LOL SO COME CORRECT OR STAY HOME!!!!!! BUT REALLY I NEED TO FIND WHO WAS PUT ON THIS EARTH FOR ME AND MAKE THAT UNION....I THINK AGE IS PLAYING WITH MY MIND LOL...
I THINK THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A LEARNING EXPERIENCE SO FAR.....GOD HAS PUT ME THROUGH SOME THINGS I GUESS TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND MY PLACE IN LIFE AND HELP ME BECOME CLOSER TO HIM AND HIS PURPOSE FOR PUTTING ME HERE.....I KNOW HE HAS A MISSION FOR ME AND I ALSO KNOW I'M NOT THE MAN HE WANTS ME TO BE BUT IMMUCH BETTER THEN THE MAN I COULD HAVE BECOME......
SO ON THAT NOTE THIS ENDS THIS EDITION OF THE TREK INSIDE MY BRAIN.....I STILL DONT KNOW WHATS AROUND
BUT I STILL FEEL IT IN THE AIR!!!!!
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
OK LETS GET A FEW THINGS STRAIGHT
FIRST I WOULD LIKE TO SAY A FEW THINGS....REST IN PEACE TO JOHNNY COCHRAN OLD DIRTY BASTARD TERRY SCHIAVO AND THE POPE....
I THINK COCHRAN WAS A GREAT LAWYER....ODB CONTRIBUTED A LOT TO HIP HOP...I BELIEVE SCHIAVO SHOULD HAVE HAD HER TUBE PULLED A LONG TIME AGO AND THE POPE WAS A GREAT MAN THAT DID ALOT FOR HIS CHURCH...
NOW LET ME MAKE THIS VERY CLEAR IF I EVER REACH A TIME IN MY LIFE WHERE I BECOME IN A VEGETATIVE STATE OR WHERE I CANT USE THE MAJORITY OF MY LIMBS(LIKE I CANT USE MY ARMS AND LEGS ALL I CAN DO IS BREATHE AND SEE) I WANT WHOEVER IS TAKING CARE OF ME TO PULL THE CORD...ANYONE WHO READS THIS IS MY WITNESS AND I AMOFSOUND MIND AND BODY...I DONT WANT NO ARGUMENTS AS TO WHAT I WANT....PULL THE CORD AND LET ME RUN ON AND SEE WHAT THE END GONNA BE.....
ON THAT NOTE LET ME GIVE YOU A LIL HISTORY LESSON ON POPES...WHILE THERE IS ONE MAN OF AFRICAN DESCENT THAT IS IN THE RUNNING TO BE POPE...HE WOULD NOT MAKE THE FIRST BLACK POPE....
TIME FOR A LITTLE HISTORY LESSON:
Old Time Religion: The 3 African Popes
This important because it:
1. it shows the importance of Africa to Christianity.
2. it shows that Africans are fit to be global leaders.
With the passing of pope John Paul II, there is much discussion over who will become the new leader of the Catholic Church. One leading candidate is a Cardinal from the African nation of Nigeria, named Francis Arinze. If he is selected, few people will be aware that he will be the fourth African pope.
Pope Victor I was born in Africa and reigned as pope from 193-202 A.D. Among his many accomplishments, he may be best known as the pope that set the date for Easter as the Sunday following the fourteenth day of the Vernal Equinox. The second African pope, pope Militiades, served as Pope from 311-314 A.D., was born in Africa but died in Rome.The last African pope was pope Gelasius who reigned from 492-496 A.D. He is considered one of the most productive popes of the 5th century. He helped reorganize the church's finances and helped solidify the church's standing by exiling the competing religion of Manichaeism.
If Cardinal Arinze becomes pope, he will not be the creator of a new tradition; he will be the continuation a tradition that has remained dormant for some fifteen centuries.
References:
Felder, Cain Hope, Editor. The Original African Heritage Study Bible. Nashville: The James C. Winston Publishing Company.
McKoy, Frank. “Will an African Pope Lead the Catholic Church Again?†http://archive.blackvoices.com/articles/daily/bw20031118pope.asp
NOW WITH THAT BEING SAID I BID YOU ADIEU
I THINK COCHRAN WAS A GREAT LAWYER....ODB CONTRIBUTED A LOT TO HIP HOP...I BELIEVE SCHIAVO SHOULD HAVE HAD HER TUBE PULLED A LONG TIME AGO AND THE POPE WAS A GREAT MAN THAT DID ALOT FOR HIS CHURCH...
NOW LET ME MAKE THIS VERY CLEAR IF I EVER REACH A TIME IN MY LIFE WHERE I BECOME IN A VEGETATIVE STATE OR WHERE I CANT USE THE MAJORITY OF MY LIMBS(LIKE I CANT USE MY ARMS AND LEGS ALL I CAN DO IS BREATHE AND SEE) I WANT WHOEVER IS TAKING CARE OF ME TO PULL THE CORD...ANYONE WHO READS THIS IS MY WITNESS AND I AMOFSOUND MIND AND BODY...I DONT WANT NO ARGUMENTS AS TO WHAT I WANT....PULL THE CORD AND LET ME RUN ON AND SEE WHAT THE END GONNA BE.....
ON THAT NOTE LET ME GIVE YOU A LIL HISTORY LESSON ON POPES...WHILE THERE IS ONE MAN OF AFRICAN DESCENT THAT IS IN THE RUNNING TO BE POPE...HE WOULD NOT MAKE THE FIRST BLACK POPE....
TIME FOR A LITTLE HISTORY LESSON:
Old Time Religion: The 3 African Popes
This important because it:
1. it shows the importance of Africa to Christianity.
2. it shows that Africans are fit to be global leaders.
With the passing of pope John Paul II, there is much discussion over who will become the new leader of the Catholic Church. One leading candidate is a Cardinal from the African nation of Nigeria, named Francis Arinze. If he is selected, few people will be aware that he will be the fourth African pope.
Pope Victor I was born in Africa and reigned as pope from 193-202 A.D. Among his many accomplishments, he may be best known as the pope that set the date for Easter as the Sunday following the fourteenth day of the Vernal Equinox. The second African pope, pope Militiades, served as Pope from 311-314 A.D., was born in Africa but died in Rome.The last African pope was pope Gelasius who reigned from 492-496 A.D. He is considered one of the most productive popes of the 5th century. He helped reorganize the church's finances and helped solidify the church's standing by exiling the competing religion of Manichaeism.
If Cardinal Arinze becomes pope, he will not be the creator of a new tradition; he will be the continuation a tradition that has remained dormant for some fifteen centuries.
References:
Felder, Cain Hope, Editor. The Original African Heritage Study Bible. Nashville: The James C. Winston Publishing Company.
McKoy, Frank. “Will an African Pope Lead the Catholic Church Again?†http://archive.blackvoices.com/articles/daily/bw20031118pope.asp
NOW WITH THAT BEING SAID I BID YOU ADIEU
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
SORRY BOUT THE DELAY
WELL I KNOW ITS BEEN A MINUTE SINCE YOU HEARD FROM OLE BOY....ITS BEEN A HECTIC COUPLE WEEKS FOR ME....I FOUND OUT THAT THE PAIN IN MY MOUTH WAS CAUSED BY FOUR IMPACTED WISOM TEETH WHICH I WILL HAVE REMOVED APRIL 21....UNTIL THEN ITS ME AND VICODIN LOL...ANYWAYS STILL UNEMPLOYED BUT BEEN DOING INDEPENDENT COMPUTER AND ELECTRONIC CONSULTING AND MAINTENANCE....BETWEEN THAT AND UNEMPLOYMENT I HAVE TO DOUGH TO GET WHAT I NEED DONE...SINCE IMON THE STATES MONEY I FIGURED I MIGHT AS WELL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF WORKFORCE NEW JERSEY AND EARN MY CERTIFICATE IN NETWORK ENGINEERING...YEA I BEEN RESEARCHING THAT INDUSTRY FOR AWHILE AND AS LONG AS THERE ARE FLAWS IN THE COMPUTINGWORLD THERE WILL BE A NEED SO I MIGHT AS WELL GET CAKE WHERE THE BAKERY IS FEEL ME? ANYWAYS ME AND MOM DUKES WILL BE INCORPORATING SOON...PLANS ON A BIGGER DAY CARE CENTER AND MY MUSIC MANAGEMENT AND PARTY PROMOTIONS FIRM IS UNDER WAY AS WE SPEAK... ONE OF PEOPLES HAS BEEN SENDING ME VARIOUS DEMOS AND I HAVE A COUPLE HEAT SEEKERS IMLISTENING TOO....ALO STILL PUTTING THE FINISHING TOUCHES ON THIS GOSPEL ALBUMIM HELPING WITH....IM TRYIN TO LOOK INTO DOING THE INTERNET RADIO THING BUT I NEED MORE INFO...ANYBODY WHO KNOWS HOLLA AT ME... ANYWAYS THATS ALL FOR NOW....HOLLA BACK
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
NEW RAMBLINGS
FIRST OF ALL I WOULD LIKE TO SAY FUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKK YOU....YES YOU AND YA MAMA AND YA CHILDREN AND ANYBODY ELSE ASSOCIATED WITH YOU THAT WANTS TO SEE ME FAIL....NOW THAT THATS OUTTA MY SYSTEM LET ME SAY IF THAT DOES NOT APPLY TO YOU DONT TAKE OFFENSE...CONTRARY TO THE BEGINNING OF THIS ENTRY I AM ACTUALLY FEELING KINDA LIGHT RIGHT NOW...I BEEN WATCHIN A FEW COMEDICAL PLAYS AND ACTUALLY JUST BEEN CHILLIN AND CRUISING RIGHT NOW....IGAVE MY PROBLEMS OVER TO GOD AND IMJUST LETTING IT BE....BUT AS THINGS ARE WELL THERE IS A CAUSE FOR MY PROBLEMS..THIS DAMN APT....FIRST IT WAS THE PLUMBING THEN ITS THE FURNACE NOW ITS THE TOILET....THE FUCK....IM STILL SINGLE BUT THINGS ARE LOOKING PROMISING.....IT SEEMS AS OF LATE THAT PEOPLE BEEN HAVING DREAMS ABOUT ME DYING OR GETTING BADLY HURT...GO FIGURE....ANYWAYS THE SMELL IN THE AIR IS STILL THERE AND IM STILL TRYING TO IDENTIFY WHAT THE HELL IS IT IN THE ATMOSPHERE AROUND ME....PEOPLE SEEM TO FORGET WHERE I CAME FROM AND MY BACKGROUND...PEDIGREE SO TO SPEAK AND IN DOING SUCH WANNA TRY TO TEST THE KID....THEY'LL FIND OUT THAT THERE FUTURE LIKE THE PAST OF THOSE THAT TRIED BEFORE THEM IS VERY BLEAK....I AINT NO GAME DONT PLAY ME PLAY LOTTO....WHICH BRINGS ME TO A PHRASE A DRUNK NEGRO AROUND MY WAY USED TO SPEW WHEN HE WOULD BECOME SEVERELY INEBRIATED: PLAY PUSSY AND GET FUCKED...I DONT HAVE TIME FOR GAMES AND THOUGH I TRY TO REMAIN PEACEFUL IF YOU WANNA TAKE IT THERE WE CAN TAKE IT THERE....
BACK TO OUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED RAMBLING....OH SHIT SHOWS OVER....WELL UNTIL NEXT TIME..HAVE FUN LIVE LIFE
CAN YOU FEEL IT IN THE AIR?
BACK TO OUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED RAMBLING....OH SHIT SHOWS OVER....WELL UNTIL NEXT TIME..HAVE FUN LIVE LIFE
CAN YOU FEEL IT IN THE AIR?
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
ANOTHER DAY
WELL ITS ANOTHER DAY AND LIFE FOR THE KID IS STILLTHE SAME....I DIDNT GET THE JOB....HMMM SOUNDS FAMILIAR...NO BIG DEAL BEEN DEALING WITH REJECTION MY WHOLE LIFE SO OH WELL IT IS WHAT IT IS.....WHEN SOMEONE DECIDES THAT IMNOT OVER QUALIFIED OR UNDER QUALIFIED OR WHATEVER THE FUCK PEOPLE USE TODAY AS THEY CRITERIA FOR WHETHER U SHOULD BE ABLE TO OBTAIN A MEANS TOMAKE ENDS MEET...THEN I WILL HAVE A JOB...FEEL ME...ALL RIGHT THEN LETS MOVE ON...
I TALKED TO A FAMILY MEMBER TODAY WHO IS NOT GETTING ALONG WITH THEIR PARENTAL UNIT....THE FEELING OF DESPAIR THAT I HEARD WAS UNNERVINGLY EERY AND IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO A POINT IN MY LIFE WHEN I WAS GOING THROUGH THE SAME THINGS....THE WANTING TO RUN AWAY...THE THOUGHTS OF KILLING MYSELF ETC ETC....I TRY TELLING HER THAT ITS NOT WORTH IT AND TO ENSURE HER THAT IM HERE FOR HER AND SHE CAN ALWAYS TALK TO ME.....BUT HAVING BEEN IN THAT SITUATION I KNOW THERE IS NOTHING I CAN SAY THAT WILL EASE HER MIND....I FEEL BAD WHEN I CANT HELP AND BEING IN A DIFFERENT PART OF THE STATE IS KILLING ME RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I CANT BE THERE FOR HER... AS MUCH AS IM SETTLING IN SOMEWHAT DOWN HERE I REALLY THINK SOMETHING IS TRYING TO PULL ME BACK HOME......
THE SAGA CONTINUES
IM BEGINNING TO FEEL THE NEED FOR COMPANIONSHIP AGAIN...NOW DONT GET ME WRONG I AM NOT ONE THAT FEELS THE NEED TO VALIDATE MYSELF BY BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP..BUT AS REALITY WOULD HAVE IT WE ALL NEED THAT COMPANION....TALKING TO A FRIEND TODAY HELPED ME REALIZE THAT TIME WILL BRING HER TO ME AND WHEN SHE COMES I WILL KNOW....I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MANY THINGS AS FAR AS RELATIONSHIPS GO SO WHEN I FINALLY FIND ONE THAT I KNOW WILL BE MINE ...SHE WILL KNOW....WHETHER I HAVE ALREADY FOUND HER AND JUST AMNOT PAYING A CLOSE ATTENTION OR SHE IS IN MY FUTURE I DONT KNOW BUT LIKE I SAID TIME WILL TELL....
A FRIEND OF MINE ASKED ME ONCE WHY AM I SO HONEST IN MY POETRY AND HERE IN MY BLOG.....I LIVE MYLIFE BY THE CODE THAT I AMAN OPEN BOOK....I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME BECAUSE I LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME....MISTAKES AND TRIUMPH INCLUDED....SO WITH THAT BEING SAID DONT JUDGE JUST UNDERSTAND ME....AND IF U CAN LEARN SOMETHING FROMMY LIFE THEN THATS ANOTHER TRIUMPH FOR EVERYONE....AND IN THE END THATS WHAT ITS REALLY ABOUT....
CAN YOU FEEL IT IN THE AIR?
I TALKED TO A FAMILY MEMBER TODAY WHO IS NOT GETTING ALONG WITH THEIR PARENTAL UNIT....THE FEELING OF DESPAIR THAT I HEARD WAS UNNERVINGLY EERY AND IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO A POINT IN MY LIFE WHEN I WAS GOING THROUGH THE SAME THINGS....THE WANTING TO RUN AWAY...THE THOUGHTS OF KILLING MYSELF ETC ETC....I TRY TELLING HER THAT ITS NOT WORTH IT AND TO ENSURE HER THAT IM HERE FOR HER AND SHE CAN ALWAYS TALK TO ME.....BUT HAVING BEEN IN THAT SITUATION I KNOW THERE IS NOTHING I CAN SAY THAT WILL EASE HER MIND....I FEEL BAD WHEN I CANT HELP AND BEING IN A DIFFERENT PART OF THE STATE IS KILLING ME RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I CANT BE THERE FOR HER... AS MUCH AS IM SETTLING IN SOMEWHAT DOWN HERE I REALLY THINK SOMETHING IS TRYING TO PULL ME BACK HOME......
THE SAGA CONTINUES
IM BEGINNING TO FEEL THE NEED FOR COMPANIONSHIP AGAIN...NOW DONT GET ME WRONG I AM NOT ONE THAT FEELS THE NEED TO VALIDATE MYSELF BY BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP..BUT AS REALITY WOULD HAVE IT WE ALL NEED THAT COMPANION....TALKING TO A FRIEND TODAY HELPED ME REALIZE THAT TIME WILL BRING HER TO ME AND WHEN SHE COMES I WILL KNOW....I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MANY THINGS AS FAR AS RELATIONSHIPS GO SO WHEN I FINALLY FIND ONE THAT I KNOW WILL BE MINE ...SHE WILL KNOW....WHETHER I HAVE ALREADY FOUND HER AND JUST AMNOT PAYING A CLOSE ATTENTION OR SHE IS IN MY FUTURE I DONT KNOW BUT LIKE I SAID TIME WILL TELL....
A FRIEND OF MINE ASKED ME ONCE WHY AM I SO HONEST IN MY POETRY AND HERE IN MY BLOG.....I LIVE MYLIFE BY THE CODE THAT I AMAN OPEN BOOK....I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME BECAUSE I LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME....MISTAKES AND TRIUMPH INCLUDED....SO WITH THAT BEING SAID DONT JUDGE JUST UNDERSTAND ME....AND IF U CAN LEARN SOMETHING FROMMY LIFE THEN THATS ANOTHER TRIUMPH FOR EVERYONE....AND IN THE END THATS WHAT ITS REALLY ABOUT....
CAN YOU FEEL IT IN THE AIR?
Saturday, February 12, 2005
IM STILL HERE
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WHATS GOOD YES THE SONG IS STILL HERE AND NOW......YOU EVEN HAD THE VIDEO....YEAAAAAAA!!!! Y'ALL CAN THANK ME LATER....YOU KNOW I HAD POSTED A LONG RANT A WEEK AGO FOR IT TO DISAPPEAR WHEN I TRIED TO LOAD IT AND THEN WHEN I COME TO DO THIS RANT...LOW AND BEHOLD THERE WAS THE FORGOTTEN RANT THAT I THOUGHT WAS LOST....HOPE YALL ENJOY IT....NOW TO THIS ONE....HMMMITS BEEN A HELL OF A WEEK TOSAY THE LEAST....
MY CAT HAD KITTENS....FIVE OF THEM...REAL CUTE..BUT THEY GOTTA GO...EARLY....I HAVE NO PATIENCE TO RAISE FIVE KITTENS ALONG WITH THE TWO GROWN CATS I ALREADY HAVE...IM SURE THEY WILL MAKE SOMEONE FINE PETS...
NEWS FLASH: I HAD JOB INTERVIEW...WISH ME LUCK....IMMA NEED IT....MY LUCK HAS BEEN HORRIBLE LATLEY...
OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH AND BEFORE I FORGET I HAVE ONLY ONE THING TO SAY TO THE EAGLES FANS THAT HARASSED ME ALL YEAR......GAME OVA LOL....WHERES THE GATORADE CAUSE THEY STAY CHOKING.....YEA MY 49ERS ARE REBUILDING BUT WE GOT RINGS ON OUR FINGERS AND THE DIAMONDS ARE SHINING THE LIGHT INTO OUR FUTURE...HOLLLLLLLLLLAAAAA
THE PAST WEEK I HAVE BEEN IN CONTACT WITH A FEW PEOPLE FROM MY PAST....AND I REALIZE THAT AS GOOD OF A PERSON AS MANY MIGHT VIEW ME NOW....I MUSTA BEEN A HORRIBLE PERSON BACK WHEN.....THIS GIRL WAS ACTUALLY CRYING WHEN RECOUNTING HOW MUCH SHE LOVED ME BUT COULDNT STAND BY WHILE I WAS DOING WHAT I WAS DOING....SHE WAS SCARED THAT ONE NIGHT MY MOM WAS GONNA CALL AND TELL HER THAT I WAS DEAD OR LOCKED UP.....I WENT THROUGH A COUPLE MORE OF THESE STORIES WITH A COUPLE OTHER EXES...
SO I GUESS THE ONES THAT DIDNT CHEAT ON ME OR WHATEVER HAVE YOU WERE SCARED OFF BY THE POSSIBILITY THAT ONE DAY I WOULD BE GONE......SUCKS....
I'VE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT EVERYTHING OR EVERYONE I LET GET CLOSE TO ME EITHER DIES OR SUFFERS SOME TYPE OF HARM OR BAD LUCK....I THINK I SHOULD JUST DISAPPEAR AND HELP SOCIETY BY NOT SPREADING MY LUCK UPON THE WORLD.....
I THINK THATS ANOTHER REASON I'M NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP.. A. AS MUCH AS I FIND A PERSON ATTRACTIVE MY SHYNESS NEVER LETS ME TALK TO THEM..... AS HAS BEEN BUT IM GETTING BETTER WITH IT....
B. IM A PERSON WHO VALUES OTHERS HAPPINESS OVER MY OWN SO IF I THINK A PERSON WOULD BE BETTER WITH SOMEONE ELSE...NO MATTER WHAT MY FEELINGS I BACK OFF...THATS JUST ME
C. LIKE I SAID MOSTLY EVERY FEMALE I HAVE GOTTEN CLOSE TO HAS EITHER DIED...CHEATED...OR BROKE UP WITH ME BECAUSE THEY WERE SCARED OF WHATMIGHT HAPPEN TO ME CAUSE OF SOMETHING I WAS DOING....
WELL DAMMIT IM TIRED OF TYPING...SO IMMA FINISH BY SAYING CHECK OUT MY FAMILY AT WWW.REALADULTNATION.COM AND ALSO REMEMBER THAT LIFES SUCKS ITS UP TO YOU TO GET THE ORGASM
CAN YOU FEEL IT IN THE AIR?
WHATS GOOD YES THE SONG IS STILL HERE AND NOW......YOU EVEN HAD THE VIDEO....YEAAAAAAA!!!! Y'ALL CAN THANK ME LATER....YOU KNOW I HAD POSTED A LONG RANT A WEEK AGO FOR IT TO DISAPPEAR WHEN I TRIED TO LOAD IT AND THEN WHEN I COME TO DO THIS RANT...LOW AND BEHOLD THERE WAS THE FORGOTTEN RANT THAT I THOUGHT WAS LOST....HOPE YALL ENJOY IT....NOW TO THIS ONE....HMMMITS BEEN A HELL OF A WEEK TOSAY THE LEAST....
MY CAT HAD KITTENS....FIVE OF THEM...REAL CUTE..BUT THEY GOTTA GO...EARLY....I HAVE NO PATIENCE TO RAISE FIVE KITTENS ALONG WITH THE TWO GROWN CATS I ALREADY HAVE...IM SURE THEY WILL MAKE SOMEONE FINE PETS...
NEWS FLASH: I HAD JOB INTERVIEW...WISH ME LUCK....IMMA NEED IT....MY LUCK HAS BEEN HORRIBLE LATLEY...
OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH AND BEFORE I FORGET I HAVE ONLY ONE THING TO SAY TO THE EAGLES FANS THAT HARASSED ME ALL YEAR......GAME OVA LOL....WHERES THE GATORADE CAUSE THEY STAY CHOKING.....YEA MY 49ERS ARE REBUILDING BUT WE GOT RINGS ON OUR FINGERS AND THE DIAMONDS ARE SHINING THE LIGHT INTO OUR FUTURE...HOLLLLLLLLLLAAAAA
THE PAST WEEK I HAVE BEEN IN CONTACT WITH A FEW PEOPLE FROM MY PAST....AND I REALIZE THAT AS GOOD OF A PERSON AS MANY MIGHT VIEW ME NOW....I MUSTA BEEN A HORRIBLE PERSON BACK WHEN.....THIS GIRL WAS ACTUALLY CRYING WHEN RECOUNTING HOW MUCH SHE LOVED ME BUT COULDNT STAND BY WHILE I WAS DOING WHAT I WAS DOING....SHE WAS SCARED THAT ONE NIGHT MY MOM WAS GONNA CALL AND TELL HER THAT I WAS DEAD OR LOCKED UP.....I WENT THROUGH A COUPLE MORE OF THESE STORIES WITH A COUPLE OTHER EXES...
SO I GUESS THE ONES THAT DIDNT CHEAT ON ME OR WHATEVER HAVE YOU WERE SCARED OFF BY THE POSSIBILITY THAT ONE DAY I WOULD BE GONE......SUCKS....
I'VE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT EVERYTHING OR EVERYONE I LET GET CLOSE TO ME EITHER DIES OR SUFFERS SOME TYPE OF HARM OR BAD LUCK....I THINK I SHOULD JUST DISAPPEAR AND HELP SOCIETY BY NOT SPREADING MY LUCK UPON THE WORLD.....
I THINK THATS ANOTHER REASON I'M NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP.. A. AS MUCH AS I FIND A PERSON ATTRACTIVE MY SHYNESS NEVER LETS ME TALK TO THEM..... AS HAS BEEN BUT IM GETTING BETTER WITH IT....
B. IM A PERSON WHO VALUES OTHERS HAPPINESS OVER MY OWN SO IF I THINK A PERSON WOULD BE BETTER WITH SOMEONE ELSE...NO MATTER WHAT MY FEELINGS I BACK OFF...THATS JUST ME
C. LIKE I SAID MOSTLY EVERY FEMALE I HAVE GOTTEN CLOSE TO HAS EITHER DIED...CHEATED...OR BROKE UP WITH ME BECAUSE THEY WERE SCARED OF WHATMIGHT HAPPEN TO ME CAUSE OF SOMETHING I WAS DOING....
WELL DAMMIT IM TIRED OF TYPING...SO IMMA FINISH BY SAYING CHECK OUT MY FAMILY AT WWW.REALADULTNATION.COM AND ALSO REMEMBER THAT LIFES SUCKS ITS UP TO YOU TO GET THE ORGASM
CAN YOU FEEL IT IN THE AIR?
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
HUMP DAY
YES THIS SONG IS STILL HERE AND WILL REMAIN UNTIL I CAN SEE WHAT I FEEL IN THE AIR LOL
NOW BACK TO BUSINESS...
LIFE FEELS LIKE IT IS STILL KICKING ME IN THE ASS WHILE REWARDING OTHERS...I MEAN JUST THE OTHER DAY I TOOK MY BROTHER TO GET HIS CAR FROM THE LOT....ME AND HIM ARE THE SAME BASICALLY FOLLOWED THE SAME PATHS(HIS A LITTLE SLIGHTLY LESS CRIMINAL) BUT IT SEEMS THAT WHEN WE HIT THE FORK IN THE ROAD I CHOSE THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD. I SWEAR I MUST BE PAYING FOR SOMETHING IVE DONE IN LIFE...IM UNEMPLOYED MAYBE BECAUSE THE EMPLOYMENT I CHOSE AS A YOUTH LEAD TO THE DESTRUCTION OF MY COMMUNITY AND THE PEOPLE IN IT..IM SINGLE MAYBE BECAUSE THE FEMALES THAT CARED FOR ME IN THE PAST I TREATED WITH SUCH BLATANT DISREGARD THAT I LEFT SOME WITH BROKEN HEARTS AND SOME WITH SCORN AT THE MERE MENTION OF MY NAME..MAYBE IM AT THE BOTTOM BECAUSE I NEVER APPRECIATED HOW HARD THE PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY WORKED TO DO WHAT THEY HAD TO DO IN LIFE...INSTEAD I VOWED I WOULD NEVER LIVE LIKE THAT AND DID ANYTHING I HAD TO DO TO GET WHAT I THOUGHT I HAD TO GET...MAYBE GOD IS FORCING ME TO APPRECIATE BEING BROKE AND NOT KNOWING HOW THE BILLS ARE GOING TO GET PAID WHERE YA NEXT MEAL IS COMING FROM...HAVING TO ACTUALLY DEPEND ON SOMEONE TO HELP WITH BASIC THINGS...BUT IM RANTING.....
IM IN A FUNK RIGHT NOW...SMOKING PACKS OF BLACKS A DAY...DRINKING ON AND OFF...ALL TYPES OF WHATTHEFUCKEDNESS GOING ON...SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE MY PURPOSE IN BEING HERE IS NIL....LIKE WHO WOULD MISS ME IF I WAS GONE....IVE ALREADY COME TO THE CONCLUSION THERE WILL BE NO CRYING AT MY FUNERAL...THERE WILL BE NO ROSES AT MY GRAVE...THE EARTH MIGHT BE BETTER SERVED BY MY ABSENCE...AGAIN IM RANTING
FOUND OUT MY CAT IS PREGNANT...DONT KNOW WHAT IM GONNA DO...CANT TAKE NO MORE CATS...MIGHT JUST TAKE HER TO A SHELTER OR FIND SOMEONE WHO LOVES ANIMALS...THOUGHT ABOUT JUST PUTTING HER OUT BUT THATS NOT HUMANE...JUST ADD TO MY LIST OF SINS...BUT AGAIN IM RANTING
AND SO WHAT IF IM RANTING...THIS IS MY BLOG DAMMIT...THE TITLE SAYS THE RAMBLINGS OF MAN...IF I FEEL LIKE RAMBLING AND RANTING THEN I WILL...IF YOU DONT LIKE IT CLICK THE X....I DONT CARE IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY...IHAVE LIVED MY LIFE NOT GIVING A DAMN WHAT OTHERS THOUGHT ABOUT ME OR MY ACTIONS....I KNOW JUDGEMENT DAY IS GONNA BE A LONG DAY FOR ME AND GOD AND SAINT PETER ARE THE ONLY PEOPLE IMMA TALK TO AND EXPLAIN FOR MY ACTIONS....IM SORRY IF YOU FEEL OFFENDED BUT IM OFFENDED BY LIFE RIGHT NOW SO DO ASI DO AND LIVE WITH IT!!!!
NOW BACK TO BUSINESS...
LIFE FEELS LIKE IT IS STILL KICKING ME IN THE ASS WHILE REWARDING OTHERS...I MEAN JUST THE OTHER DAY I TOOK MY BROTHER TO GET HIS CAR FROM THE LOT....ME AND HIM ARE THE SAME BASICALLY FOLLOWED THE SAME PATHS(HIS A LITTLE SLIGHTLY LESS CRIMINAL) BUT IT SEEMS THAT WHEN WE HIT THE FORK IN THE ROAD I CHOSE THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD. I SWEAR I MUST BE PAYING FOR SOMETHING IVE DONE IN LIFE...IM UNEMPLOYED MAYBE BECAUSE THE EMPLOYMENT I CHOSE AS A YOUTH LEAD TO THE DESTRUCTION OF MY COMMUNITY AND THE PEOPLE IN IT..IM SINGLE MAYBE BECAUSE THE FEMALES THAT CARED FOR ME IN THE PAST I TREATED WITH SUCH BLATANT DISREGARD THAT I LEFT SOME WITH BROKEN HEARTS AND SOME WITH SCORN AT THE MERE MENTION OF MY NAME..MAYBE IM AT THE BOTTOM BECAUSE I NEVER APPRECIATED HOW HARD THE PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY WORKED TO DO WHAT THEY HAD TO DO IN LIFE...INSTEAD I VOWED I WOULD NEVER LIVE LIKE THAT AND DID ANYTHING I HAD TO DO TO GET WHAT I THOUGHT I HAD TO GET...MAYBE GOD IS FORCING ME TO APPRECIATE BEING BROKE AND NOT KNOWING HOW THE BILLS ARE GOING TO GET PAID WHERE YA NEXT MEAL IS COMING FROM...HAVING TO ACTUALLY DEPEND ON SOMEONE TO HELP WITH BASIC THINGS...BUT IM RANTING.....
IM IN A FUNK RIGHT NOW...SMOKING PACKS OF BLACKS A DAY...DRINKING ON AND OFF...ALL TYPES OF WHATTHEFUCKEDNESS GOING ON...SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE MY PURPOSE IN BEING HERE IS NIL....LIKE WHO WOULD MISS ME IF I WAS GONE....IVE ALREADY COME TO THE CONCLUSION THERE WILL BE NO CRYING AT MY FUNERAL...THERE WILL BE NO ROSES AT MY GRAVE...THE EARTH MIGHT BE BETTER SERVED BY MY ABSENCE...AGAIN IM RANTING
FOUND OUT MY CAT IS PREGNANT...DONT KNOW WHAT IM GONNA DO...CANT TAKE NO MORE CATS...MIGHT JUST TAKE HER TO A SHELTER OR FIND SOMEONE WHO LOVES ANIMALS...THOUGHT ABOUT JUST PUTTING HER OUT BUT THATS NOT HUMANE...JUST ADD TO MY LIST OF SINS...BUT AGAIN IM RANTING
AND SO WHAT IF IM RANTING...THIS IS MY BLOG DAMMIT...THE TITLE SAYS THE RAMBLINGS OF MAN...IF I FEEL LIKE RAMBLING AND RANTING THEN I WILL...IF YOU DONT LIKE IT CLICK THE X....I DONT CARE IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY...IHAVE LIVED MY LIFE NOT GIVING A DAMN WHAT OTHERS THOUGHT ABOUT ME OR MY ACTIONS....I KNOW JUDGEMENT DAY IS GONNA BE A LONG DAY FOR ME AND GOD AND SAINT PETER ARE THE ONLY PEOPLE IMMA TALK TO AND EXPLAIN FOR MY ACTIONS....IM SORRY IF YOU FEEL OFFENDED BUT IM OFFENDED BY LIFE RIGHT NOW SO DO ASI DO AND LIVE WITH IT!!!!
Monday, January 31, 2005
New Week
Well its a new week and soon to be a new month. Black history month. Thats for a future thread. Changes are bound to happen and like before i can still feel it in the air. My life is heading in directions that i myself still have yet to determine. The things i have set out to accomplish are slowly forming and some seem like they are regressing rather then progressing. I am faced with situations that, in the beginning, dont seem good...but everything happens for a reason.
Employment is one of the areas i feel is regressing but thismay be for the good. I might be being held back so that i can open my eyes to a greater opportunity. I am and always have been a business minded person. I know in my heart that having my own business is what needs to be accomplished. Having said that, ambition doesnt pay the rent. Neither does it put food in my mouth. A wise man once said that those who are afraid to try, fail. I have to decide whether i am afraid to try or if iam ready to sacrifice for the betterment of my life. Soon the answer will come. I'll keep yall updated as that progresses...
The relationship scene is basically nonexistent. I am beginning to accept the role of single.It has helped me find myself and make myselfa better person. But what good isit to better yourself and do good in your life, when in the end you have noone to share it with. I have seen women come and go. I have seen my friends get into relationships and get married...and i have seen them get into relationships and break up...just like they learned fromtheir experiences ihave learned from them. Some people i thought would be the one, ended up not being. Sometimes the person for you is the person you least expect it to be...Having said that...hopefully i'll find the person for me one day....Again i will let yall know as it forms...
I have learned that no matter what you go through in life their are no bad experiences....just learning experiences... If you go through something and feel its bad, that means that you probably didnt learn from it.
My parting words for this post will be this...do what is right for you...you can only live for you..make your decisions based on ya inner self...if you wanna take that job take it...if you wanna quit that job and start ya own business do it... if you wanna date somebody that people might find not right....if that person is for you do that thing....
Change is coming....is just whether its gonna be for better or for worse and in the end that is all up to you... love the life you lead and live the life you love...
can you feel it in the air?
Employment is one of the areas i feel is regressing but thismay be for the good. I might be being held back so that i can open my eyes to a greater opportunity. I am and always have been a business minded person. I know in my heart that having my own business is what needs to be accomplished. Having said that, ambition doesnt pay the rent. Neither does it put food in my mouth. A wise man once said that those who are afraid to try, fail. I have to decide whether i am afraid to try or if iam ready to sacrifice for the betterment of my life. Soon the answer will come. I'll keep yall updated as that progresses...
The relationship scene is basically nonexistent. I am beginning to accept the role of single.It has helped me find myself and make myselfa better person. But what good isit to better yourself and do good in your life, when in the end you have noone to share it with. I have seen women come and go. I have seen my friends get into relationships and get married...and i have seen them get into relationships and break up...just like they learned fromtheir experiences ihave learned from them. Some people i thought would be the one, ended up not being. Sometimes the person for you is the person you least expect it to be...Having said that...hopefully i'll find the person for me one day....Again i will let yall know as it forms...
I have learned that no matter what you go through in life their are no bad experiences....just learning experiences... If you go through something and feel its bad, that means that you probably didnt learn from it.
My parting words for this post will be this...do what is right for you...you can only live for you..make your decisions based on ya inner self...if you wanna take that job take it...if you wanna quit that job and start ya own business do it... if you wanna date somebody that people might find not right....if that person is for you do that thing....
Change is coming....is just whether its gonna be for better or for worse and in the end that is all up to you... love the life you lead and live the life you love...
can you feel it in the air?
Thursday, January 27, 2005
I CAN FEEL IT
Whats up people?!!!! Sorry bout the lack of writing but the kid been hustling trying to get his life right....Feel me?!!! Anyways time to update y'all on my lifes happenings.
First of all i lost a woman very dear to me, my grandmother. I took that real hard and stepped back fromlife as it is a lil. She taught me alot and to not have her here anymore is gonna be a load to bear. They say life goes on and thats what she would have wanted so thats what imma do.
Second, still jobless. I done put in a thousand resumes, an equal number of apps and countless interviews...It's beginning to piss me off. I really feel like imbeing discriminated against cause its all we need people when they on the phone, but when i get there its suddenly we'll get back to you or we have allthe people we need..i'm like the fuck can i get a break or what...its ight either imma get something or my own business ventures will hopefully take form and jump off...i hope something happens cause when i get bored i get restless and that leads totrouble which i dont need..
Third, im still without a woman...im still looking for that down chick...i always said aint no woman crazy enough to settle down with me but im sure there is one out there...i have a real close friend that i could see being wifey..but she has to handle what she has to handle before we can attempt anything...she has a very beautiful spirit very honest and straightforward..she keeps getting into bad situations trusting the wrong people and being kind to people that dont deserve it...its ight hold ya head ma...know Buddha gonna be here for you whether its as man and wife or best friends and thats real ya heard me!!! If you cant ever trust noone else know that i got ya back ride or die till death do us part...
Last but not least... I had a dream last night that had me shook... i dreamt that i was talking to my aunt and at the end ofthe convo she said she was sent here to give something to me...rather give to my mother...so she hands me an envelope and tells meto look inside...inside there was an obituary....for me....ijumped back and was like the fuck....i woke up sweating damn near having an asthma attack....i dont know whats its supposed to mean....maybe my time is near...maybe GOD trying to tell me to get my life right...or maybe my death in my dream is signaling a new life for me in the real world....anyways i know one thing....I can feel something in the air....
First of all i lost a woman very dear to me, my grandmother. I took that real hard and stepped back fromlife as it is a lil. She taught me alot and to not have her here anymore is gonna be a load to bear. They say life goes on and thats what she would have wanted so thats what imma do.
Second, still jobless. I done put in a thousand resumes, an equal number of apps and countless interviews...It's beginning to piss me off. I really feel like imbeing discriminated against cause its all we need people when they on the phone, but when i get there its suddenly we'll get back to you or we have allthe people we need..i'm like the fuck can i get a break or what...its ight either imma get something or my own business ventures will hopefully take form and jump off...i hope something happens cause when i get bored i get restless and that leads totrouble which i dont need..
Third, im still without a woman...im still looking for that down chick...i always said aint no woman crazy enough to settle down with me but im sure there is one out there...i have a real close friend that i could see being wifey..but she has to handle what she has to handle before we can attempt anything...she has a very beautiful spirit very honest and straightforward..she keeps getting into bad situations trusting the wrong people and being kind to people that dont deserve it...its ight hold ya head ma...know Buddha gonna be here for you whether its as man and wife or best friends and thats real ya heard me!!! If you cant ever trust noone else know that i got ya back ride or die till death do us part...
Last but not least... I had a dream last night that had me shook... i dreamt that i was talking to my aunt and at the end ofthe convo she said she was sent here to give something to me...rather give to my mother...so she hands me an envelope and tells meto look inside...inside there was an obituary....for me....ijumped back and was like the fuck....i woke up sweating damn near having an asthma attack....i dont know whats its supposed to mean....maybe my time is near...maybe GOD trying to tell me to get my life right...or maybe my death in my dream is signaling a new life for me in the real world....anyways i know one thing....I can feel something in the air....
Thursday, January 06, 2005
MIND PLAYING TRICKS
THATS EXACTLY HOW I GIVE IT TO YOU STRAIGHT NO CHASER...RIGHT OFF THE DOME....RAW...IT SEEMS AS OF LATELY MY MIND HAS BEEN WAGERING WAR AMONGST ITSELF...I MEAN,ITS LIKE IM IN THAT LIL JON VID WHAT U GON DO....CAUSE I FEEL LIKE IM FIGHTING AGAINST MYSELF...I NEED A JOB I DONE SO MAY RESUMES I CANT SEEMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM TO GET IT RIGHT... THE FUCK....IM STADING SO CLOSE TO EDGE....I HAVE SO MUCH I STAND TO LOSE RIGHT NOW...MY APT MY WAY OF LIVING MY INDEPENDENCE.....I FEEL LIKE I HAVE THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON ME....I DONT THINK EMPLOYERS UNDERSTAND WHEN IT IS SAID THAT WORKERS HAVE PROBLEMS... ANYWAYS I DIGRESS.... ALL I CAN DO IS MOVE ON DO WHAT I DO BEST AN THATS HOLD MY HEAD AND HAVE FAITH THAT WHATEVER I GET IS WHAT I DESERVE.....
TO MY BOO...U ALWAYS GOT MY BACK AND I APPRECIATE IT...ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE WHO HAS MY BACK DAMN NEAR 100% OF THE TIME.....I LOVE YOU AND U SURELY WILL HAVE MY FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE ETERNALLY
TO MY BROTHER SHORTYROCK I KNOW U AGGRAVATED SPENDING CHIPS WHEN YOU SHOULD BE STACKING THEM BUT TRUST....SOON I WILL BE ON MY FEET AND THINGS WILL BE LIKE THEY WERE AT FIRST..BEST BELIEVE....U ARE THE BEST BROTHER AND FRIEND A CAT CAN HAVE AND WE GONNA KEEP ON UNTL WE GET WHERE WE GOTTA GO....
AS FOR ALL YALL OTHER PEOPLE....EITHER YALL WITH ME OR AGAINST ME...LIKE I SAID BEFORE ITS 2005 AINT NOTHIN TO DO BUT SURVIVE....YOU DONT WANT NO PROBLEMS....
WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET
TO MY BOO...U ALWAYS GOT MY BACK AND I APPRECIATE IT...ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE WHO HAS MY BACK DAMN NEAR 100% OF THE TIME.....I LOVE YOU AND U SURELY WILL HAVE MY FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE ETERNALLY
TO MY BROTHER SHORTYROCK I KNOW U AGGRAVATED SPENDING CHIPS WHEN YOU SHOULD BE STACKING THEM BUT TRUST....SOON I WILL BE ON MY FEET AND THINGS WILL BE LIKE THEY WERE AT FIRST..BEST BELIEVE....U ARE THE BEST BROTHER AND FRIEND A CAT CAN HAVE AND WE GONNA KEEP ON UNTL WE GET WHERE WE GOTTA GO....
AS FOR ALL YALL OTHER PEOPLE....EITHER YALL WITH ME OR AGAINST ME...LIKE I SAID BEFORE ITS 2005 AINT NOTHIN TO DO BUT SURVIVE....YOU DONT WANT NO PROBLEMS....
WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
THEY SAY TIME FLIES WHEN YOUR HAVING FUN SO THAT MUST BE WHY ITS DRAGGING SO MUCH NOW THAT I AM NOT LOL...I FLIP THROUGH ENDLESS ADS AND THE SUCH SCOURING FOR A JOB...I SWEAR IF I HAD THE RESOURCES I WOULD JUST DO MY OWN THING....I HAVE PLENTY OF TALENTS AND KNOW PLENTY OF PEOPLE THAT CAN DO WHAT I CANT THAT COMPLIMENTS ME VERY WELL....MY HOUSE IS IN SHAMBLES...THERE ARE CLOTHES EVERYWHERE DISHES IN THE SINK....IDUNNO ME AND MY BROTHER BEEN KINDA LAZY LOL...ILL GET TOO IT SOON...NO BIG DEAL....
I HAD A CONVERSATION WITH A RELATIVE OF MINE AND I CAME TO REALIZE THAT MOSTLY ALL MY EXES HAVE KIDS...IM GLAD THEY AINT MINE LOL....I DONT THINK I COULD BE AROUND SOME OF THEM FOR EIGHTEEN OR SO YEARS..
YOU KNOW ON THAT NOTE...I THINK IM READY TO SETTLE DOWN AND HAVE SOME KIDS.....WOULDNT MIND THAT AT ALL...BEEN DOING THE SINGLE THING FOR AWHILE AND IM BEGINNING TO DISLIKE IT LOL....
ANYWAYS I MUST GO AND BE PRODUCTIVE SO I WILL BE BACK LATA
HOLLA AT YA BOY
I HAD A CONVERSATION WITH A RELATIVE OF MINE AND I CAME TO REALIZE THAT MOSTLY ALL MY EXES HAVE KIDS...IM GLAD THEY AINT MINE LOL....I DONT THINK I COULD BE AROUND SOME OF THEM FOR EIGHTEEN OR SO YEARS..
YOU KNOW ON THAT NOTE...I THINK IM READY TO SETTLE DOWN AND HAVE SOME KIDS.....WOULDNT MIND THAT AT ALL...BEEN DOING THE SINGLE THING FOR AWHILE AND IM BEGINNING TO DISLIKE IT LOL....
ANYWAYS I MUST GO AND BE PRODUCTIVE SO I WILL BE BACK LATA
HOLLA AT YA BOY
Sunday, January 02, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR
WHATS UP PEOPLE....I KNOW I HAVEN'T POSTED IN AWHILE BUT IM BACK AND ...WELL ITS A NEW YEAR LOL.....A FRIENDS OF MINE SHOWED HOW THESE BLOGS CAN HELP YOUR SOUL....SO I DECIDED TO START WRITING AGAIN.....
LIKE I SAID ITS NEW YEARS AGAIN AND ONE MORE TIME ITS TIME FOR THE RITUAL OF MAKING RESOLUTIONS AND THE SUCH......FUCK THAT!!!! I REFUSE TO MAKE A LIST OF SHIT THAT AINT GONNA GET DONE ONLY TO LOOK BACK AT THE LIST AND BECOME AGGRAVATED BY WHAT HASNT BEEN DONE....INSTEAD I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO GET DONE IN MY LIFE AND IMMA DO MY DAMNEST TO GET WHAT I GOTTA GET DONE.....
IM STILL SINGLE BUT HAVE MY EYE ON SOMEONE...WE BOTH GETTING OUR LIVES TOGETHER AND THATS JUST GONNA MAKE US BETTER TOGETHER....HOLLA AT ME BOO I GOT YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN AINT SHIT THIS WORLD GOT ON US!!!
I WANT ALL YALL TO CHECK OUT WWW.REALADULTNATION.COM THIS IS A SITE I HELP RUN AND ITS A GOOD JOINT....NICE PLACE TO HANG OUT AND TALK ABOUT WHATEVA WE GOT EVERYTHING YOU NEED....
ANYWAYS IVE BEEN DRINKING AND IM FULL IM BOUT TO SMOKE A BLACK WATCH SOME TV AND CHILL
HOLLA AT YA BOY
LIKE I SAID ITS NEW YEARS AGAIN AND ONE MORE TIME ITS TIME FOR THE RITUAL OF MAKING RESOLUTIONS AND THE SUCH......FUCK THAT!!!! I REFUSE TO MAKE A LIST OF SHIT THAT AINT GONNA GET DONE ONLY TO LOOK BACK AT THE LIST AND BECOME AGGRAVATED BY WHAT HASNT BEEN DONE....INSTEAD I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO GET DONE IN MY LIFE AND IMMA DO MY DAMNEST TO GET WHAT I GOTTA GET DONE.....
IM STILL SINGLE BUT HAVE MY EYE ON SOMEONE...WE BOTH GETTING OUR LIVES TOGETHER AND THATS JUST GONNA MAKE US BETTER TOGETHER....HOLLA AT ME BOO I GOT YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN AINT SHIT THIS WORLD GOT ON US!!!
I WANT ALL YALL TO CHECK OUT WWW.REALADULTNATION.COM THIS IS A SITE I HELP RUN AND ITS A GOOD JOINT....NICE PLACE TO HANG OUT AND TALK ABOUT WHATEVA WE GOT EVERYTHING YOU NEED....
ANYWAYS IVE BEEN DRINKING AND IM FULL IM BOUT TO SMOKE A BLACK WATCH SOME TV AND CHILL
HOLLA AT YA BOY
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