WELL ITS ANOTHER DAY AND LIFE FOR THE KID IS STILLTHE SAME....I DIDNT GET THE JOB....HMMM SOUNDS FAMILIAR...NO BIG DEAL BEEN DEALING WITH REJECTION MY WHOLE LIFE SO OH WELL IT IS WHAT IT IS.....WHEN SOMEONE DECIDES THAT IMNOT OVER QUALIFIED OR UNDER QUALIFIED OR WHATEVER THE FUCK PEOPLE USE TODAY AS THEY CRITERIA FOR WHETHER U SHOULD BE ABLE TO OBTAIN A MEANS TOMAKE ENDS MEET...THEN I WILL HAVE A JOB...FEEL ME...ALL RIGHT THEN LETS MOVE ON...
I TALKED TO A FAMILY MEMBER TODAY WHO IS NOT GETTING ALONG WITH THEIR PARENTAL UNIT....THE FEELING OF DESPAIR THAT I HEARD WAS UNNERVINGLY EERY AND IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO A POINT IN MY LIFE WHEN I WAS GOING THROUGH THE SAME THINGS....THE WANTING TO RUN AWAY...THE THOUGHTS OF KILLING MYSELF ETC ETC....I TRY TELLING HER THAT ITS NOT WORTH IT AND TO ENSURE HER THAT IM HERE FOR HER AND SHE CAN ALWAYS TALK TO ME.....BUT HAVING BEEN IN THAT SITUATION I KNOW THERE IS NOTHING I CAN SAY THAT WILL EASE HER MIND....I FEEL BAD WHEN I CANT HELP AND BEING IN A DIFFERENT PART OF THE STATE IS KILLING ME RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I CANT BE THERE FOR HER... AS MUCH AS IM SETTLING IN SOMEWHAT DOWN HERE I REALLY THINK SOMETHING IS TRYING TO PULL ME BACK HOME......
THE SAGA CONTINUES
IM BEGINNING TO FEEL THE NEED FOR COMPANIONSHIP AGAIN...NOW DONT GET ME WRONG I AM NOT ONE THAT FEELS THE NEED TO VALIDATE MYSELF BY BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP..BUT AS REALITY WOULD HAVE IT WE ALL NEED THAT COMPANION....TALKING TO A FRIEND TODAY HELPED ME REALIZE THAT TIME WILL BRING HER TO ME AND WHEN SHE COMES I WILL KNOW....I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MANY THINGS AS FAR AS RELATIONSHIPS GO SO WHEN I FINALLY FIND ONE THAT I KNOW WILL BE MINE ...SHE WILL KNOW....WHETHER I HAVE ALREADY FOUND HER AND JUST AMNOT PAYING A CLOSE ATTENTION OR SHE IS IN MY FUTURE I DONT KNOW BUT LIKE I SAID TIME WILL TELL....
A FRIEND OF MINE ASKED ME ONCE WHY AM I SO HONEST IN MY POETRY AND HERE IN MY BLOG.....I LIVE MYLIFE BY THE CODE THAT I AMAN OPEN BOOK....I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME BECAUSE I LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME....MISTAKES AND TRIUMPH INCLUDED....SO WITH THAT BEING SAID DONT JUDGE JUST UNDERSTAND ME....AND IF U CAN LEARN SOMETHING FROMMY LIFE THEN THATS ANOTHER TRIUMPH FOR EVERYONE....AND IN THE END THATS WHAT ITS REALLY ABOUT....
CAN YOU FEEL IT IN THE AIR?
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