Well its a new week and soon to be a new month. Black history month. Thats for a future thread. Changes are bound to happen and like before i can still feel it in the air. My life is heading in directions that i myself still have yet to determine. The things i have set out to accomplish are slowly forming and some seem like they are regressing rather then progressing. I am faced with situations that, in the beginning, dont seem good...but everything happens for a reason.
Employment is one of the areas i feel is regressing but thismay be for the good. I might be being held back so that i can open my eyes to a greater opportunity. I am and always have been a business minded person. I know in my heart that having my own business is what needs to be accomplished. Having said that, ambition doesnt pay the rent. Neither does it put food in my mouth. A wise man once said that those who are afraid to try, fail. I have to decide whether i am afraid to try or if iam ready to sacrifice for the betterment of my life. Soon the answer will come. I'll keep yall updated as that progresses...
The relationship scene is basically nonexistent. I am beginning to accept the role of single.It has helped me find myself and make myselfa better person. But what good isit to better yourself and do good in your life, when in the end you have noone to share it with. I have seen women come and go. I have seen my friends get into relationships and get married...and i have seen them get into relationships and break up...just like they learned fromtheir experiences ihave learned from them. Some people i thought would be the one, ended up not being. Sometimes the person for you is the person you least expect it to be...Having said that...hopefully i'll find the person for me one day....Again i will let yall know as it forms...
I have learned that no matter what you go through in life their are no bad experiences....just learning experiences... If you go through something and feel its bad, that means that you probably didnt learn from it.
My parting words for this post will be this...do what is right for you...you can only live for you..make your decisions based on ya inner self...if you wanna take that job take it...if you wanna quit that job and start ya own business do it... if you wanna date somebody that people might find not right....if that person is for you do that thing....
Change is coming....is just whether its gonna be for better or for worse and in the end that is all up to you... love the life you lead and live the life you love...
can you feel it in the air?
Monday, January 31, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
I CAN FEEL IT
Whats up people?!!!! Sorry bout the lack of writing but the kid been hustling trying to get his life right....Feel me?!!! Anyways time to update y'all on my lifes happenings.
First of all i lost a woman very dear to me, my grandmother. I took that real hard and stepped back fromlife as it is a lil. She taught me alot and to not have her here anymore is gonna be a load to bear. They say life goes on and thats what she would have wanted so thats what imma do.
Second, still jobless. I done put in a thousand resumes, an equal number of apps and countless interviews...It's beginning to piss me off. I really feel like imbeing discriminated against cause its all we need people when they on the phone, but when i get there its suddenly we'll get back to you or we have allthe people we need..i'm like the fuck can i get a break or what...its ight either imma get something or my own business ventures will hopefully take form and jump off...i hope something happens cause when i get bored i get restless and that leads totrouble which i dont need..
Third, im still without a woman...im still looking for that down chick...i always said aint no woman crazy enough to settle down with me but im sure there is one out there...i have a real close friend that i could see being wifey..but she has to handle what she has to handle before we can attempt anything...she has a very beautiful spirit very honest and straightforward..she keeps getting into bad situations trusting the wrong people and being kind to people that dont deserve it...its ight hold ya head ma...know Buddha gonna be here for you whether its as man and wife or best friends and thats real ya heard me!!! If you cant ever trust noone else know that i got ya back ride or die till death do us part...
Last but not least... I had a dream last night that had me shook... i dreamt that i was talking to my aunt and at the end ofthe convo she said she was sent here to give something to me...rather give to my mother...so she hands me an envelope and tells meto look inside...inside there was an obituary....for me....ijumped back and was like the fuck....i woke up sweating damn near having an asthma attack....i dont know whats its supposed to mean....maybe my time is near...maybe GOD trying to tell me to get my life right...or maybe my death in my dream is signaling a new life for me in the real world....anyways i know one thing....I can feel something in the air....
First of all i lost a woman very dear to me, my grandmother. I took that real hard and stepped back fromlife as it is a lil. She taught me alot and to not have her here anymore is gonna be a load to bear. They say life goes on and thats what she would have wanted so thats what imma do.
Second, still jobless. I done put in a thousand resumes, an equal number of apps and countless interviews...It's beginning to piss me off. I really feel like imbeing discriminated against cause its all we need people when they on the phone, but when i get there its suddenly we'll get back to you or we have allthe people we need..i'm like the fuck can i get a break or what...its ight either imma get something or my own business ventures will hopefully take form and jump off...i hope something happens cause when i get bored i get restless and that leads totrouble which i dont need..
Third, im still without a woman...im still looking for that down chick...i always said aint no woman crazy enough to settle down with me but im sure there is one out there...i have a real close friend that i could see being wifey..but she has to handle what she has to handle before we can attempt anything...she has a very beautiful spirit very honest and straightforward..she keeps getting into bad situations trusting the wrong people and being kind to people that dont deserve it...its ight hold ya head ma...know Buddha gonna be here for you whether its as man and wife or best friends and thats real ya heard me!!! If you cant ever trust noone else know that i got ya back ride or die till death do us part...
Last but not least... I had a dream last night that had me shook... i dreamt that i was talking to my aunt and at the end ofthe convo she said she was sent here to give something to me...rather give to my mother...so she hands me an envelope and tells meto look inside...inside there was an obituary....for me....ijumped back and was like the fuck....i woke up sweating damn near having an asthma attack....i dont know whats its supposed to mean....maybe my time is near...maybe GOD trying to tell me to get my life right...or maybe my death in my dream is signaling a new life for me in the real world....anyways i know one thing....I can feel something in the air....
Thursday, January 06, 2005
MIND PLAYING TRICKS
THATS EXACTLY HOW I GIVE IT TO YOU STRAIGHT NO CHASER...RIGHT OFF THE DOME....RAW...IT SEEMS AS OF LATELY MY MIND HAS BEEN WAGERING WAR AMONGST ITSELF...I MEAN,ITS LIKE IM IN THAT LIL JON VID WHAT U GON DO....CAUSE I FEEL LIKE IM FIGHTING AGAINST MYSELF...I NEED A JOB I DONE SO MAY RESUMES I CANT SEEMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM TO GET IT RIGHT... THE FUCK....IM STADING SO CLOSE TO EDGE....I HAVE SO MUCH I STAND TO LOSE RIGHT NOW...MY APT MY WAY OF LIVING MY INDEPENDENCE.....I FEEL LIKE I HAVE THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON ME....I DONT THINK EMPLOYERS UNDERSTAND WHEN IT IS SAID THAT WORKERS HAVE PROBLEMS... ANYWAYS I DIGRESS.... ALL I CAN DO IS MOVE ON DO WHAT I DO BEST AN THATS HOLD MY HEAD AND HAVE FAITH THAT WHATEVER I GET IS WHAT I DESERVE.....
TO MY BOO...U ALWAYS GOT MY BACK AND I APPRECIATE IT...ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE WHO HAS MY BACK DAMN NEAR 100% OF THE TIME.....I LOVE YOU AND U SURELY WILL HAVE MY FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE ETERNALLY
TO MY BROTHER SHORTYROCK I KNOW U AGGRAVATED SPENDING CHIPS WHEN YOU SHOULD BE STACKING THEM BUT TRUST....SOON I WILL BE ON MY FEET AND THINGS WILL BE LIKE THEY WERE AT FIRST..BEST BELIEVE....U ARE THE BEST BROTHER AND FRIEND A CAT CAN HAVE AND WE GONNA KEEP ON UNTL WE GET WHERE WE GOTTA GO....
AS FOR ALL YALL OTHER PEOPLE....EITHER YALL WITH ME OR AGAINST ME...LIKE I SAID BEFORE ITS 2005 AINT NOTHIN TO DO BUT SURVIVE....YOU DONT WANT NO PROBLEMS....
WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET
TO MY BOO...U ALWAYS GOT MY BACK AND I APPRECIATE IT...ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE WHO HAS MY BACK DAMN NEAR 100% OF THE TIME.....I LOVE YOU AND U SURELY WILL HAVE MY FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE ETERNALLY
TO MY BROTHER SHORTYROCK I KNOW U AGGRAVATED SPENDING CHIPS WHEN YOU SHOULD BE STACKING THEM BUT TRUST....SOON I WILL BE ON MY FEET AND THINGS WILL BE LIKE THEY WERE AT FIRST..BEST BELIEVE....U ARE THE BEST BROTHER AND FRIEND A CAT CAN HAVE AND WE GONNA KEEP ON UNTL WE GET WHERE WE GOTTA GO....
AS FOR ALL YALL OTHER PEOPLE....EITHER YALL WITH ME OR AGAINST ME...LIKE I SAID BEFORE ITS 2005 AINT NOTHIN TO DO BUT SURVIVE....YOU DONT WANT NO PROBLEMS....
WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET SKEET
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
THEY SAY TIME FLIES WHEN YOUR HAVING FUN SO THAT MUST BE WHY ITS DRAGGING SO MUCH NOW THAT I AM NOT LOL...I FLIP THROUGH ENDLESS ADS AND THE SUCH SCOURING FOR A JOB...I SWEAR IF I HAD THE RESOURCES I WOULD JUST DO MY OWN THING....I HAVE PLENTY OF TALENTS AND KNOW PLENTY OF PEOPLE THAT CAN DO WHAT I CANT THAT COMPLIMENTS ME VERY WELL....MY HOUSE IS IN SHAMBLES...THERE ARE CLOTHES EVERYWHERE DISHES IN THE SINK....IDUNNO ME AND MY BROTHER BEEN KINDA LAZY LOL...ILL GET TOO IT SOON...NO BIG DEAL....
I HAD A CONVERSATION WITH A RELATIVE OF MINE AND I CAME TO REALIZE THAT MOSTLY ALL MY EXES HAVE KIDS...IM GLAD THEY AINT MINE LOL....I DONT THINK I COULD BE AROUND SOME OF THEM FOR EIGHTEEN OR SO YEARS..
YOU KNOW ON THAT NOTE...I THINK IM READY TO SETTLE DOWN AND HAVE SOME KIDS.....WOULDNT MIND THAT AT ALL...BEEN DOING THE SINGLE THING FOR AWHILE AND IM BEGINNING TO DISLIKE IT LOL....
ANYWAYS I MUST GO AND BE PRODUCTIVE SO I WILL BE BACK LATA
HOLLA AT YA BOY
I HAD A CONVERSATION WITH A RELATIVE OF MINE AND I CAME TO REALIZE THAT MOSTLY ALL MY EXES HAVE KIDS...IM GLAD THEY AINT MINE LOL....I DONT THINK I COULD BE AROUND SOME OF THEM FOR EIGHTEEN OR SO YEARS..
YOU KNOW ON THAT NOTE...I THINK IM READY TO SETTLE DOWN AND HAVE SOME KIDS.....WOULDNT MIND THAT AT ALL...BEEN DOING THE SINGLE THING FOR AWHILE AND IM BEGINNING TO DISLIKE IT LOL....
ANYWAYS I MUST GO AND BE PRODUCTIVE SO I WILL BE BACK LATA
HOLLA AT YA BOY
Sunday, January 02, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR
WHATS UP PEOPLE....I KNOW I HAVEN'T POSTED IN AWHILE BUT IM BACK AND ...WELL ITS A NEW YEAR LOL.....A FRIENDS OF MINE SHOWED HOW THESE BLOGS CAN HELP YOUR SOUL....SO I DECIDED TO START WRITING AGAIN.....
LIKE I SAID ITS NEW YEARS AGAIN AND ONE MORE TIME ITS TIME FOR THE RITUAL OF MAKING RESOLUTIONS AND THE SUCH......FUCK THAT!!!! I REFUSE TO MAKE A LIST OF SHIT THAT AINT GONNA GET DONE ONLY TO LOOK BACK AT THE LIST AND BECOME AGGRAVATED BY WHAT HASNT BEEN DONE....INSTEAD I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO GET DONE IN MY LIFE AND IMMA DO MY DAMNEST TO GET WHAT I GOTTA GET DONE.....
IM STILL SINGLE BUT HAVE MY EYE ON SOMEONE...WE BOTH GETTING OUR LIVES TOGETHER AND THATS JUST GONNA MAKE US BETTER TOGETHER....HOLLA AT ME BOO I GOT YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN AINT SHIT THIS WORLD GOT ON US!!!
I WANT ALL YALL TO CHECK OUT WWW.REALADULTNATION.COM THIS IS A SITE I HELP RUN AND ITS A GOOD JOINT....NICE PLACE TO HANG OUT AND TALK ABOUT WHATEVA WE GOT EVERYTHING YOU NEED....
ANYWAYS IVE BEEN DRINKING AND IM FULL IM BOUT TO SMOKE A BLACK WATCH SOME TV AND CHILL
HOLLA AT YA BOY
LIKE I SAID ITS NEW YEARS AGAIN AND ONE MORE TIME ITS TIME FOR THE RITUAL OF MAKING RESOLUTIONS AND THE SUCH......FUCK THAT!!!! I REFUSE TO MAKE A LIST OF SHIT THAT AINT GONNA GET DONE ONLY TO LOOK BACK AT THE LIST AND BECOME AGGRAVATED BY WHAT HASNT BEEN DONE....INSTEAD I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO GET DONE IN MY LIFE AND IMMA DO MY DAMNEST TO GET WHAT I GOTTA GET DONE.....
IM STILL SINGLE BUT HAVE MY EYE ON SOMEONE...WE BOTH GETTING OUR LIVES TOGETHER AND THATS JUST GONNA MAKE US BETTER TOGETHER....HOLLA AT ME BOO I GOT YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN AINT SHIT THIS WORLD GOT ON US!!!
I WANT ALL YALL TO CHECK OUT WWW.REALADULTNATION.COM THIS IS A SITE I HELP RUN AND ITS A GOOD JOINT....NICE PLACE TO HANG OUT AND TALK ABOUT WHATEVA WE GOT EVERYTHING YOU NEED....
ANYWAYS IVE BEEN DRINKING AND IM FULL IM BOUT TO SMOKE A BLACK WATCH SOME TV AND CHILL
HOLLA AT YA BOY
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