I CAN FEEL IT

Whats up people?!!!! Sorry bout the lack of writing but the kid been hustling trying to get his life right....Feel me?!!! Anyways time to update y'all on my lifes happenings.

First of all i lost a woman very dear to me, my grandmother. I took that real hard and stepped back fromlife as it is a lil. She taught me alot and to not have her here anymore is gonna be a load to bear. They say life goes on and thats what she would have wanted so thats what imma do.

Second, still jobless. I done put in a thousand resumes, an equal number of apps and countless interviews...It's beginning to piss me off. I really feel like imbeing discriminated against cause its all we need people when they on the phone, but when i get there its suddenly we'll get back to you or we have allthe people we need..i'm like the fuck can i get a break or what...its ight either imma get something or my own business ventures will hopefully take form and jump off...i hope something happens cause when i get bored i get restless and that leads totrouble which i dont need..

Third, im still without a woman...im still looking for that down chick...i always said aint no woman crazy enough to settle down with me but im sure there is one out there...i have a real close friend that i could see being wifey..but she has to handle what she has to handle before we can attempt anything...she has a very beautiful spirit very honest and straightforward..she keeps getting into bad situations trusting the wrong people and being kind to people that dont deserve it...its ight hold ya head ma...know Buddha gonna be here for you whether its as man and wife or best friends and thats real ya heard me!!! If you cant ever trust noone else know that i got ya back ride or die till death do us part...

Last but not least... I had a dream last night that had me shook... i dreamt that i was talking to my aunt and at the end ofthe convo she said she was sent here to give something to me...rather give to my mother...so she hands me an envelope and tells meto look inside...inside there was an obituary....for me....ijumped back and was like the fuck....i woke up sweating damn near having an asthma attack....i dont know whats its supposed to mean....maybe my time is near...maybe GOD trying to tell me to get my life right...or maybe my death in my dream is signaling a new life for me in the real world....anyways i know one thing....I can feel something in the air....